ALL I ONCE DESPISED

ALL I ONCE DESPISED

All that I contrived

and despised

in you,

Hal Edwards,

all I sought to

erase or fortify

I irrevocably embrace,

I now concede

to the Greater Gods

who gather all of me,

my light and my darkness,

into

Soul-saving

Reunion.

Yes, you have

sampled Eden’s

forbidden

fruit;

You

have experienced

the intensities of

passion

and soared with

enchanted

wings of grace.

You have groveled through

dark dangerous caverns,

clung from

precarious precipices,

always restless,

searching and yearning

for more depth,

more meaning,

more life-giving purpose.

With your compelling,

all-consuming

passion

for excellence,

you neglected

restfulness and play;

you abandoned

your very soul

while seeking

to save

yourself

through your busyness.

Yes, yes, yes,

I embrace you,

Hal Lamar Edwards, Jr.,

I embrace you,

I forgive you,

I love you

the way you are.

Your divine wound

wears well now.

You limp

with ancient Jacob,

having wrestled

through the long nights

with

your dark angel.

Oh, the list of grievances

goes on and on—

your naïve hopefulness,

your acculturated religiosity,

your narcissistic introspections,

your intellectual snobbery,

your hierarchy of illusions,

your distended self identity,

your positioning for approval,

your ego-centered goodness,

your unconscious arrogance—

Yes, yes, yes.

“Dr.” Hal Lamar Edwards, Jr.,

I did not overlook

your shadowed footprints.

Alas,

good brother,

finally

they lie all spent,

awaiting their

redeeming moment.

Like fermented compost,

the metamorphosis

is well underway.

Well done,

imperfect and faithful

servant.

Welcome.

Your Eucharist awaits you.

Limp gracefully

into the

kingdom

where

Original Goodness

reigns for all.

-Hal Edwards

Wauconda

March 30, 2015

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