DYING INTO LIFE

DYING INTO LIFE

Why don’t I

Just give up,

Stop trying,

Gather enough courage

To lie down

And die?

Beyond exhaustion,

I want to sleep

forever

And numb out

The pain

Of my

Own existence.

The road seems

So dark and

Unending, so

Lonely, so

Dangerous

And demanding.

It becomes narrow,

And the bends

And bumps

Prevent me

From seeing

Far enough

Ahead.

Hope now gone,

I have frozen into

My fears;

I trudge ahead

Not knowing

Where I am

Going.

The dark settles

All around me,

The rain rattles

My brain

And racks my

Body with its

Bone chilling

Penetrating drench.

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I’M LOOKING OVER THE LIFE THAT LIVES ME

I’M LOOKING OVER THE LIFE THAT LIVES ME

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Drawn

To reflect

On the life

That has tricked me,

The life that has blessed me,

I am enticed,

Yes, drawn,

Like a moth into neon light,

To that wonderful

And popular love song

of my early childhood:

 

I’m Looking Over

A four-leafed clover

That I overlooked before.

One leaf is sunshine;

The second is rain;

Third is the roses

That grow in the lane;

No need explaining

The one remaining

Is somebody I adore.

I’m looking over

A four leafed clover

That I overlooked

Before.

 

I see now;

That somebody

“I overlooked before”

Has all too often

Been that

Altogether Me

I kept

hidden

From myself.

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