THE IRRATIONALITY OF FORGIVENESS

THE IRRATIONALITY OF FORGIVENESS

 

Jesus Christ!

You got it all

backwards!

Jesus,

I have something

to say to You.

 

I did the right thing!

I chose to love

and respect and serve;

I never once

withheld my commitments.

I did my damned best,

and You

have the audacity

to ask

me

to let go

of all my

 expectations

and to release

that betrayer…

even to forgive him??

 

What are you asking

of me!!

Is Your Jehovah-Abba

for and against

me at the same time?

 

I did the right thing,

I sacrificed and planned ahead

and

I did the hard work;

I was the one

who remained loyal

and

I get the shaft…

and now

You say

it’s my turn

to forgive???

 

What kind of

justice and accountability

is this?

Whose side

are You on?

 

Forgive???

 

Are You telling me

it doesn’t

matter

who was wrong

and who was

right?

 

Doesn’t it matter

that I

did the right thing….

that I was

betrayed by

the insentience

of the one I loved?

…by the person

who

received my

total trust

and lifelong

commitment?

 

What do You have to say

about justice

and truth

and

“What goes around comes around?”

 

What is that?

What are You saying

to me now?

 

(I plunge blindly

into

sacred scriptures

out of sheer desperation

and what do I encounter!!)

 

Every “holy dip”

takes me to

Forgiveness.

 

MyGod!

It’s

written all across

the life and teachings of

Your

legacy.

 

“Forgive them;

they do not know

what they are doing.”

 

Your

 final words

extend to me

like a laser beam… across time

across the Kidron Valley,

across Europe and Asia,

through

Washington to Moscow,

into my

righteous, infested rationale.

 

I dip again

into the gospel stories

and….

 

“Forgive us

our wrongs

as we forgive

those who have

wronged us.”

 

Your most famous Prayer

pierces with its

arduous blade,

puncturing my

reasonably infested

mind.

 

 

Are You telling me

that I must

first

forgive myself

for

not forgiving

him?

 

Hal Edwards

Wauconda

September 17, 2013

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